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Yeah, I know that this is probably a ''happy realization" statement but when you really feel it coming true, it hurts real bad.

I shouldn't even bother writing about getting hurt or anything because I totally deserve it. I'm drowning in my own self pity state. I don't like anything about me. Infact, I think I hate myself. That's the catch! That's my effing problem. I hate myself and everything about me. I think the GOD that was making me was playing some sort of cruel joke like -- Haha! Here - you have everything but you don't have anything. 

It's like I have a perfect life which is empty. I have everything that a human being needs to live. What's missing? Parents, health, friends, family, love, education, faith? Nothing! It's all there. But still nothing is there. 

There's a limit upto which a person can take it in. The problem is when it starts being a mundane thing. Everytime there's something that keeps bothering me. There's not one effing moment that I can call as ''peace''. It's like this weird package deal! Either settle for complete peace or complete nuisance. I must've been a fool choosing the latter part. 

Yeah, I know some of my amazing friends would go like : Chill! Be happy with what you have. God has blessed you a lot. Think about people who are not priviledged enough and blah blah. I hate it when you guys say that. I really do. You wanna know why? Because you all have been there. Don't deny it. What if someone gives you a speech on something which is absolutely nowhere related to the problem you've been dipping in? How would you feel? Prolly feel like thrashing that person right then. 

I'm so frustrated right now with everything. I can't even finish myself or escape from this life sucking hell because I'm attached to my family and my friends or people who like err tolerate me! I've to be right there -- LIVING! SUFFERING! 

Ironic how the concept of living makes me suffocate now. 

Life sucks. So do I.

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On a winter's day long, a year ago
I fell in love and I'll never know
Just what it was that made me feel
So drawn to her, what the appeal

That set my pulses so to race
When e'er I gazed upon that face
Of one who was scarce but a child
Yet even then could drive me wild

I'll never know the how's and why's
I lost my heart to Suman's Eyes
But when I got that long sought kiss
I knew I'd found my Perfect Miss

My cute girlfriend from down the lane
And I'll never let her go again

For how could I describe our love?
Romantic love, all hearts and flowers
No way to count the days and hours
Spent in self-indulgent wishes
And thoughts of long awaited kisses
Of sweet embraces, tender sighs
And gazing into love filled eyes

Oh yes, it is that kind of love

Or, is it yet the love of passion
The ecstasy that knows no ration
That shuddering nerve-tingling feeling
The climax with your senses reeling
The wondrous joy when you discover
That sweet surrender to your lover
Oh yes, it's that kind of love too.

Or even yet a love that grows
One that cares and one that knows
That sees beyond the outer skin
Into the person deep within
That loves the spirit and the soul
The inner self that makes the whole
Built on trust and empathy
A love you know was meant to be

The love we share is all these things
A love that has no need of rings
A love you never need to doubt
A love I cannot live without
A love to last us all our days
A love I'll share with you always

PS:- dedicated to sm1..

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Today during a conversation with my friends made me realize something, how things have changed, how my life has changed ..in other words moved on !! There was a two year phase in my life, a phase filled with mood swings, ups and downs with so much negativity. All i used to do was crib.. blah, blah and blah for every smallest possible trouble.

And then, somehow,magically it was all gone. It was end of 2009  and beginning of 2010. So many people knowingly or unknowingly were responsible for it. 

You meet thousands of people, none of them touch you. And then you meet that one person and your life is changed forever; in my case there were few such people. They just changed me inside out. I don't know, how they manage to do it but somehow they did it.

Now i know my life is way toooo beautiful !! I'm facing just 0.001% problems of life..and when i see people with 99% problems smiling..i get a smile, that is worth so much.

I love myself, my life, my parents, my family, my girlfriend, my friends..and everyone who has somehow knowingly or unknowingly touched my life. I just don't want to hate anyone anymore. Probably life is too short to waste time for such silly things.

I say thank you way too much, 

And probably today for the last time, i want to thank each and every person that is responsible for the person i am. Love you all, sooooo much. A big waala thank you !

PS: Someone taught me to see life/things from the top..things we most of the time crib about have no meaning when seen them as part of our life as whole. So just let these things go. Love your loved ones. And also made me realize how beautiful our life is, and how beautiful are people that are part of it. Will love and miss her till the end :-)

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