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Saudade....!!---A feeling of loneliness....
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March 07, 2012
in
personal
Dear blog,
I'm cringing and shrinking into myself these days..not being
introvert..not being self-centered..but some kind of inertia holding me tight
within the clutches of loneliness..kinda resorting to insightful
introspection..
What do i have to muse so much about? I had never been a complex character to be dug and dissected...My life has always been simple enough to be cracked with an average savvy...But I’m switched into a thinking mode for the last 4 days...Trying desperately to topple it..But flunking each time...
I'm no more interested in hang outs, not in movies, neither in parties nor in
talking with my friends... Life is turning out to be a hide and seek with me
choosing to hide each time...There are those rejected phone calls and
unanswered messages and neglected chats..
Perhaps the new twists and turns in my life and the inevitable bafflement is all responsible for my state of mind…
Perhaps the advent of a new serious life plays the magic…
Reasons apart..
I have become all alone..
Perhaps not alone..but trailing from a sucking loneliness to the genial solitude..
What do i have to muse so much about? I had never been a complex character to be dug and dissected...My life has always been simple enough to be cracked with an average savvy...But I’m switched into a thinking mode for the last 4 days...Trying desperately to topple it..But flunking each time...
Perhaps the new twists and turns in my life and the inevitable bafflement is all responsible for my state of mind…
Perhaps the advent of a new serious life plays the magic…
Reasons apart..
I have become all alone..
Perhaps not alone..but trailing from a sucking loneliness to the genial solitude..
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“Dusk is just an illusion because the sun is either above the horizon or below it. And that means that day and night are linked in a way that few things are there cannot be one without the other yet they cannot exist at the same time. How would it feel I remember wondering to be always together yet forever apart?”
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