state of my mind--my heart..!!

it pains when u no longer own a feeling..an idea..a creation u lived...imagined...dreamed..prayed..initiated..and loved with all your heart....

it pains when ppl u share all yr jokes wid dunt find it funny...

it pains wen yr intentions are accused...

it pains wen u keeep holdin on to an idea...a belief a faith for sooooo long only to find someday that u were holdin on thin air...

funny...but true...how something can brush across yr heart in a fraction of seconds n giv u pain that u neva imagined...

funny how some third parties words keep back to u..encirclin in yr mind...how much eva u try to rmove the crap----its crap after all..isnt it?

funny how ppl whom we luv care n adore behave strangely wid us....in a manner that wrenches d heart....

funnny how we make d most wildest decisions based on the situation mentioned above...

decisions dat we may not have dreamt of making...decisions wich r taken by facing the heat--

-wen it pains...coz wen it does...it burns not only d heart but also d face...d cheeks..d eyes...

funnny wat a day-an hr-a minute can do to u n yr state of mind...

funny wen sometimes u feel best wen u r left alone...d silence...d slow breathing...d sanctity of yr own presence...everything bout u dat u feel to notice wen u r in a crowd...

funny wat "pain" can do to u..p-a-i-n!!!

the 4 letter monster wich hurts pokes...makes u cry...but teaches u...a moment of pain can teach u wat a decade of happiness cant!!!!

PS:- i dunno what i want, may be love, life, dream, ambition....or may be silence, isolation.....!

In  my dream you are my life

but in my life you are my dream...

PPS:- passing through the bad phases of my life...in front of my eyes i am seeing my red rose turning into yellow..! but i can't say anything, more over i have to pretend as if yellow is better than red...! 
 

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