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Not having a goal in life leads to confusion... with most of the important decisions in life!

I have no place of my own; physically and in people's lives, except you( my love )!

I don't know where to go... I keep screwing up stuff.. and it hurts... but I still am true to myself ( i think )!

Now;I have goals.. the only thing is that I am not doing anything about it!! I should start!!! when???????

OK..sorry if i have confused you.. but I am sort of thinking in print!! 

Between.. I am in love.. and that is not going to change.. ( again.... I think )

I LOVE U

PS:- Most of the time I think falling in love leads to a great confusion but now I thing that falling in love leads to some confession also. It will change the taste of all your desire and wishes. you will love to prefer isolation, the perfect isolation.

THANK GOD I CONFESSED I AM IN LOVE...

ciaos:

praveen (fantastic)

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……occurred to me today. What if someone makes a film based on my life? I don’t know why it suddenly struck me- may be because my life is so melodramatic at times, or may be I just want the current period of my life to be pinned in the form of some books or reeled in.

This I found weird which I have encountered after a 10 days of absent from the field of blogging. I was stuck in my so called BUSY schedule though the 10 days passed only by doing inane things.

Whatever the reason, after the moment that thought occurred to me, I spent the rest of my day (well it’s still going on) with a background narration in my head complete with background musical scores.

And what if my life got the sequel of some hit films like 3 IDIOTS or GAAJNI or some other in this field. This is really a strange to think about such films whose basis is from my life style.

The life style of a so called engineering student…

Hope the real chore which I left for your part is to think for why I got struck with this weird thought?

All comments will be entertained.

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Things are so cyclic….even have you wondered? I don’t know how it sounds to you but I think it is the case with everyone. What you do one day you will get returned another day. Like, if you invite somebody on a dinner you will get the invitation back on some other day (probably the next day). Perhaps jeena isi ka naam hai
Both the case is right. Good things are less cyclic and bad one more. I don’t know from where I should begin it but yes it the case that what I faced a couple of days before in my home.

I would like to pin down my attitude toward life, friends & wife. {Know me more by now}. I find the word life much weird!! What is life? Is it mean to make lots of bank-balance or to make your personal dream come true? Hope it is the general case round the globe but for my side, it is not true {though I also run to catch the one}. Then what life mean for me? Nothing!! Just a drop of tears, if you have the ability to give the MIDASS touch then you have enjoyed it at your fullest otherwise it is useless. Like tears mainly come in the bad time and if you have the ability to turn the bad moment into a good one then it is the life. Oh it crumbs! But I am not jotting anyone’s memoir but it my personal belief. It’s true that life constitutes of many ups and downs, but who creates these ups and downs? Of course! It’s we human being. Anyway I am not over here to doctrine over life and how to enjoy it as I, myself, don’t know what this life is meant for. Few days back I was roaming at VARDAMAN station looking for some good interesting stuffed novel and I picked the one “The Seven Minutes” by “IRVING WALLACE”. Though it mainly focus on the topic of a banned story of sex and for the first few hour I kept my pace and crossed 50 pages from where I came to know what the life is meant for. I am not going to jot down some points over here as it will make my post little bit filthy.
The second one is friends. If you have the best among the worst then you are lucky. And if you have the worst among the best then you are luckier. Both the above lines are much convoluted to understand it but believe me folks, I have experienced it. One of mine friend belongs to the second point and I am much luckier as I keep on dreaming for her. Life and friends both belongs to the same vessel. Friends are those …who will slightly creep in your heart and will stay for there ever. Most often I have heard that school mates are the best friends in ones life but I think it is not the case with everyone. I have one from my school days, for whom I was very much fond of but she thinks that I was too dorky to keep friendship with because I have proposed her. Once she promised to be my best for ever. Again I don’t know what this word proposal mean? Anyway I am in no mood to quote the hussy of my friend because once she was my foundation. Hence I am luckier to have her. So you can see how a friend means to one like me.
Third is wife. Very lovely to hear that word, but don’t get me wrong. I am not married and neither committed to any girls yet I can elucidate it. Just keep a little patience to understand the depth of that word. I don’t know about other people but as my friend has given me a solid foundation; my wife will be that person who will make prefab on that foundation to make me a good citizen, a good person, a good husband, a better son, brother and then a best engineer. The only person who will keep in touch with you before your death will be your life partner. And hope she will teach you about the pleasure of life and how to live it at your fullest. I dream of marrying with a beautiful girl with whom one day I will make rest of my life dream come true. Under her shadow and in her arms I will go on exploring for my answer of what is life and for what purpose it is meant? Unlike other bachelor I also have some points which I want to see inside my wife and hope that nobody will mind if I will jot it down over here in this blogpage.
1. She should not pay concentration towards materialistic things like other girls.
2. She should be well educated and should stand beside me in all my decision and action.
3. She should love to live in diversity and beyond any bound.
4. She should not have the tendency to panache.
5. And lastly she should love me more than anybody else.
These three words only make a man human being. With a hope that i will be the one among them here i end my post with satisfaction and a lurking joys.
--scribbled by: praveen kumar

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Every night I see u, I feel u
I don't know where r u!!
How much I try to tell u
How much u mean to me
You are so far still close to me
Every night reminds me
of the dreams that we shared
still shows how much we cared....
And now we are far apart...
only with the memories that we spent in the past
I guess
if I born again, with the attitude to end my pain
I would have hugged my past
till my life ends, up to my last
I still remember those days
when my life revolves round you
Days begun with u and ends with u
I still hope
I could stop u, I could be with u
I still wish
We had a life of our own, as we have known
but not every wish is granted
not every wish is fulfilled
and hence I thought
I will stop
I will stop, I will stop, I will stop.........

PS:- I have writen the above piece in the loving memory of my friends which has left me far apart

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……and I didn’t write any post which will tell the purpose of my writing (!). Just a few words to share……I will not write about my nostalgia and will not eulogies somebody’s work or marriage. Just little truth, few hopes, little ambition and few bogeys…


I think truth, hope, ambition & bogeys are some what inter-related. I don’t know what you think (:-!) but I feel I am some what right. From my childhood I have heard beta, work hard, otherwise you will not get success. Success! I don’t know what the correct intonation is but I feel weird when I hear that word!! Some what I keep on connecting the word success with failure because I was a failure. I always see my success in my failure. I kept my hope ignited and ignited because it was the base of my ambition. When one keeps his ambition then hope is the only base and not ones success. Am I right? Because one doesn’t know whether his success will ensure his ambition or whether it will be the hope which will bring ones success. Don’t get me wrong, but I think when we sit in exams first we hope to get success and then success ensures our hope. Like that way bogeys have its own role to play. It’s nothing but a blessing in disguise. It is, you can say positive side of negative things. Both hope & bogeys are the building block of success. And finally it is ambition around which these; hopes, success, and ambition are centered.

Now I understand why our teacher asks ‘what is your ambition’, because they wanted to make us all student successful.

PS: - Don’t run behind the success, run behind the excellence. If you run behind the excellence, the success will run behind you.

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